bOrEd!!!!!!
help me man..in freaking bored at home please!!!
vin
i just love this wife of mine!!
she actually helped me with my work
whoosh~
so cool pls..
thankew thankew thankew!!!!
muacks!!
vin
finally,
i get to hear the reason
why you din want me to like you.
sighx.)':
heyy
can you stop putting yourself down??
do you know by saying things of yourself that is untrue
it hurts me too??
you say you want me to put myself in other's shoes.
why not try putting yourself in my shoes.
then you'll kow how much i love you.
anyway just promise me you won't do that again.
okayy??please..
don't think of yourself in that way.
who says that you're not worthy of my liking..
and stop trying to push the blame to yourself..
it's not ur falt at all.
i have a part to play in it too..
if you want to be blaming pple.
then blame me!
i am to blame okayy
i din know that by my liking you.
you wld think that way of yourself.
im srry
really really sorry
but i can't decide who i want to like right?
my heart decides that.
i know you say that you can
just beacuse you're good at brainwashing yourself?!
if you are good at it it does not mean that others will be too
i just follow my heart okayy dearie..
but if i let you go i wld never know
what my life wld be holding YOU"close to me
i swore to you my love wld remain
and i swear it all over again and i
i never gonna treat you bad
cox i dun wanna see you sad
i swore to share your joy and your pain
and i swear it all over again.
how can i change the world
cause i sure can't change ur mind
where's the miricle i need now
gotta get to you somehow
vin
FUCK!!
cyber week is so torturing!!
but atleast i get to see you lah.
so it's not that bad.
and besides i think we spend more time talking.
weather it is online of on the phone..
am i right??
oh wells..
you know that i love you and you alone
and nth can change that fact.
so??
what are you going to do abt it..
try and change it by being cold to me??
trying to avoid me??
well i know you won't do that lah.
ure not the kind that wld avoid i guess.
i hope.
sigh are you avoiding the questions im trying to ask?
can't you just tell me straight in the face
weather it is a yes OR no.
i'll still take it in.
dun worry
i won't go histerical and do what some pple do lah.
well well..
im still hoping that you will tell me stuff and your feeling
cause i wld really like to know.
share it with me lah.
it's seriously not a good thing to keep it inside
BOTTLED UP.
just share it yeah??
it does not have to be me.
just share it with someone else.
anybody.
ur brother or sister also can lah.
vin
i swear that if you EVER ever
tell me a single thing about how you feel
i won't tell a soul.
i know that you're scared that other pple might know
and i think i've betrayed the trust quiet a few times already.
im sorry.
i shld not have told your bestfriend what you told me.
but i seriously thought that she wld have known
maybe that's why you sort of kept your distance from then
you din say anything.
i know im just another fucker who can't keep my fucking mouth shut lah
but i dunnoe.
maybe i was just too happy
that i had to share it with someone.
you said before that you wanted me to tell you things.
but how do you want me to do that??
especially when the things i want to say
or that i am sad about is you.
you madd or smth.
haiya i dunnoe
but i think i've said this before
i DON'T want to be complaining you to YOU.
so dunb right.
haiyers.
anyway.
i know you've got things to say.
so just say it.
PLEASE.
im begging you.
vin
sighx.
im damn bloody confused
i really do not know what im surposed to do from here
i cannot say that i love you,
cos you dun like it
and tho to me i find that you're feeling the way i do for you.
but i cannot ask you
or you'll get madd at me..
man!!!
you tell me what you want me to do can
im really clueless..
my questions are left hanging
because i can't ask them.
shld i let time do things??
or shld i just ask you
and clear the doubt within??
sighx..i myself don't know
and if im going to ask you
you'll probably get madd at me agn for misunderstanding stuff
wo zhen de hen nan zuo ren arh!!
i've never stepped into love this happy before
and tho still did get hurt
but you know it.
the best is that we talk things out and clear it
very fast
faster than it usually wld take..
is this a good thing or a bad??
i really wld like to know
you keep ur feelings to yourself.
even when ure feeling sadd..
angry..
you just bottle them up inside you
and it's kinda worrying..
cox in long term this is not a good thing
i know this sounds stupid
but..
i dunnoe lah..i seriously don't
please tell me
how you really feel..
tell me those stuffs..
let me be there for you
to comfort you..
don't keep it inside you..
i'll always be here.((:
vin
argh!!
im so BORED
sian at home.
can't go out..
sighx..
listening to raidio.
searching fer more pictures to draw..
have got to do my art..
four more black and whites
five coloured
four transfromation..
argh!!
how how??
sure cannot finish one
transformation the worst
dunnoe how the hell am i going to do it sia
haha
but anyway
will have to
will try to
alrightex....
- out
vin
fuck lah.
so you think that by leaving things will be better??
have you ever considered the person who brought you here in the first place?
how would she feel?!
are you sure this is what HE wants you to do?
very sure?
i thought P louis had already made it very clear that it's not right to be doing this?
i know that you'll probably be thinking that im saying all this because i don't want you to go?
YES i dun want you to go..
but im just saying what i think is right
i mean if it's better fot you to be there..wld P not let you go??
ARGH!!!!
why do you always have to make me cry?!
huh?do you?!
i know you don't like this subject..you've said it before..
i dunnoe how to do this either.
i'll probably end up in tears..
anyway..i just feel that it's not right..
the guy ur going to follow..
i know im in no position to say this.
but just let me say it alright??
he just left everything here and went off..
i know he told everyone that he was going and asked if you guys wld follow him.
but that is it right??
did he hand over things properly??
i mean P already said that HE wld never ask us to just drop eveything and move else where.
even if HE wanted us to move HE wld have made sure that everything is passed over properly to someone before we even go.
i know that the guy has treated you very well..
he wld just send you home aft ur meetings and all..
you needed a dad.
he was one to you.
maybe.
i dunnoe.
if i were you i wld be touched too.
but i'll still heed the leadership's advice.
even if you're going to do things the right way and leave the right way..
the person that you're going with is not going to.
in fact he has not done so.
i dunnoe im noe angry or anything
im just sadd lah..SAD.
nth else.
idunnoewhythetearsjusthavetoflow
vin
DAMN IT..
im really in love with you
but anyhow..
i know i do not stand a chance..
you don't want to give me a chance
but that's alright
im happy the way things are now..
and i hope you are too..
today was a happy day.
walked home with you.
walking home wih you
i'll never tire out.
cox just having you beside me
gives me the strength
to walk on home.
vin
WOAH!!
i
cannot believe this!!
are we really that
fated?!wahaha
saw you ytd when i went to upper pierce
and tho i knew you were going..
but i did't know which part and where!!
and
yet we met each other there!!
BIG SHOCK MAN!!
then today
saw you
again
at ave 1 there
and the
best thing was that
i
did't even know you were goin to be there!!
how
cool is this??
whahahahaha..
don't worry im not misunderstanding anything arh
just surprised and happy too((:
wanted to ask you play bball today
but you weren't at home..
your maid said you went swimming??
vin
wah i think the singapore idol is damn funny..
esp that lemom tree guy and the ever so soft idiot..
cannot even hear him can??
he still can ask for comments..wahaha..
there was another girl like him..
man sooo soft..
dick lee was like i think
even if we put the microphone into your mouth..
we won't even be able to hear a thing!!!
wah i laughed like madd..
me and my mom just sat infront of the TV and laughedur heads off..
oh yea and there was this guy
he was asking fer permision for everything..
including to move aroud..wahaha..
he moved around too much eh=x
damn funny..
vin
wah!!
it was darn funny after school..
matt drake and marc wanted to learn how to play more than words.
they decided to have me as their shi fu.HAHA
drake learns fast..matt arh..haiya..abit slow lah
but still i like the the plucks the strings.
pple is pluck inwards
she plucks OUTWARDS!!
cool arh.
then aft my guitar CCA
went to wait for them to finish trng.
then they asked if they could bring the guitars home
well i thought it was of not harm
so..
why not??
then went to the guitar cupboard to take the guitar case
then home we went
marc was surposed to give me a life home..
and matt give drake..
end up both me and marc were going to take a cab
then drake and matt were taking the cab too
so we decided to have some AMAZING RACE shit!!
raced for a cab.i was first but marc
having SHORT legs.
was somehow at the back.
i went up the cab then drake came in too!!
followed by matt.then marc
so ended up the four of us in the cab.
just kept laughing like some mad kidds in the cab
then found out that marc actually told matt
"let the better group win!"
wah then we laughed even more.
and that's the end of it.
so the sequence is like this
drake goes
then matt
then me
then marc the last.
wahaha.
vin
sigh.
im damn confused right now man.
what am i surposed to do??
saw you this morning but i pretended not to.
you were with ur partner.
she came down to pass cookies to su lizard and me.
oh well..
i did't even know if you wld saw hi if i did..
is our friendship going to
END now??
this way??
I DON'T WANT IT TO!!
i don't want to
DISTANCE away from you again
NOT now.
NOT ever..
if you think we'll be better as friends
then so it shall be
we'll just be
FRIENDS!!
ain't that good?!
i mean i still will keep those promises..
so it's alright??
give me a call when you read this okayy
hope it's not too
LATE..
heex
vin
but then agn you may not be talking abt me.
or atleast i hope.
vin
fuck it
i screwed things up.
damn this is not the first time.i guess.
im not even getting the wrong idea mind you
a hug is just
A HUG
so what's wrong??
hug longger or shorter got wrong meh??
what the fuck is wrong with you can??
and what's with the bothering stuff
just fuck off lah..fuck off..
i dun wanna hear any explainations..
it's my fault la k??
AGAIN
i shld not have got the wrong idea okayy
this is the answer you want right??
FINE
here!!happy now?!
FUCK MYSELF
im just a bloody fucker
stilldaresaythatyou'renotaffectedbywhatotherpeoplesay*
vin
