You just leave me so damn comfused.
You text me,
and I hoped with all my heart that we could talk.
Really talk.
But no,
all I did was to ask if you got my text the night before cause you didnt reply.
And what was the reply?
I got dissed.
WHAT?
You texted me first eh..
I dont deserve to be treated like that.
I know you hate me for walking out on you
and I know that what I did was wrong and I hate myself for doing that too.
This whole shit is just driving me insane.
Why do I feel as if Im the only one trying to get this back.
Why cant we just talk it out properly, camly, without getting angry and without scolding each other.
Just sit and talk it out, give each other ample time to think.
Be patient with one another.
Sigh-
It seems so simple huh?
I wish you could do that, I wish I could do that..
Why, why, why.
Why did things have to turn out like that?
Why didnt I have a wee bit more self control?
Why do you not think you're wrong?
Why cant you tell me what you really feel?
Why.
I just need you to tell me what I should do next.
(Im no robot. Wha I mean to say is that I just need to know how you feel before I know what to do)
You say you dont want me.
But I still could feel the kind of warmth you give in that hug.
Though short-lived.
I somehow know you're still here.
Somehow...
vin
Stayover with L at T's place was good.
Those two cheebye faces just wanted to sleep.
EH! You guys asked me to wake you all up at 10 lo!!
HAHA.
I was up early doing my work.
Anyway,
everything turned out not to bad.
Ytd saw me waking up rather early to met L.
Again.
Yes.
HAHA.
Went to town, met T.
T was tired so she left early.
Leaving L and I.
Met my Godma.
Dinner-ed.
I think L and I went round the whole of singapore today or smth.
OMG!!!
Hahahaha.
I accompanied her so she accompanied me.
If you get my drift.
Oh.
And I think we filled our lungs with tar.
Everything's just not going the way we want it to huh bro?
F U C K.
Is there not smth I can do?
Or not do so you'll take me back.
It's not even my fault ya?You cheated on me.I broke up with you, aint that normal.But now that I want you back,you simply ignore me.Ask me to tell you how I really feel and you'll break up with me la.SEE!!Why cant you come after me for a change.If you still love me?Make me feel wanted for a change.I know it's only right that Im doing the going aft jobbut dont you realise that I have feelings too?I love you, I want you.Is that even wrong?Just come back la..Please.I so need you with me.I swear.
vin
Dont you just hate the way jealousy eats you from the inside?
How it slowly but surely kills you till you're gone?
If you dont understand what Im talking about
DONT, I repeat, DONT TRY!
You're not going to like it I swear.
I for one am not the best candidate for this game.
I hate being jealous cause it just sucks fuck and best of all,
there's NOTHING you can do about it but
GET OVER IT.
Yourself.
Life just sucks the way it is,
and well if you realise,
I tend to blog more when things are not going right.
HAHA.
I should learn to share my happy times more than my sad ones huh?
But fuck.
Who cares.
Like she will bother to come here to see what I think.
As much as I hope she does,
I doubt it.
Then again, I'll never know man..
I'll never know.
I miss her more and more each day,
and I kinda know she does too.
I mean, she can hide and all but girl, I know you still do care.
Come back to me please?
I need you..
BAD.
vin
Sorry my posts have been rather emo of late.
Life hasnt been all smooth-sailing for me,
esp in the past week.
I hate this feling
And it drives me crazy just thinking about what you're doing now.
What's next?
I want to get you back.
vin
Do you realise that the 9 o'clock show on channel eight's rather emo?
I find myself tearing when I watched it today.
Maybe it's just because it reminds me of a certain someone.
Sigh-
I had plans for the holiday,
but I guess I wont be needing them anymore.
Basically, I just wanted to spend all the time I could with you.
Girl, Im just missing you so bad.
What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you’re not there?
What I got to go to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it’s all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It’s sad, so sad
It’s a sad, sad situation.
And it’s getting more and more absurd.
It’s sad, so sad
Why can’t we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That
sorry seems to be the hardest word. What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It’s sad, so sad
It’s a sad, sad situation.
And it’s getting more and more absurd.
It’s sad, so sad
Why can’t we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That
sorry seems to be the hardest word. Yeh. Sorry
What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When
sorry seems to be the hardest word. iloveyou-
imissyou-
ineedyou-
iwantyou-
vin
Bits and PiecesWhen I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around and around
Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the End of the Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it,
I just didn't care You just don't understand how much I love you do you?
I'm here for you
I'm not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for you 'till my dying day baby
Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? Just come back to me
whenwillthispainend-
vin
I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lieYou knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn thats sad)
There are many things left to remind me
Of
a love that I just cant leave behind meThey think Im crazy to still love you this much.
And to still consider taking you back.
But fact is after all that you've said and done to me,
deep down when I search my heart,
you're there.
I know from the way you acted and the tone that you still care.
Now, since you say you want me no more,
I guess it's really the end.
You broke your promise, I broke mine.
You did it thrice, I broke that once.
Most upsetting thing is you think that there's nothing wrong with it
and you didnt even say a single word of apology.
You think it's not even your fault and you think you've done me no wrong.
I know I should have kept my promise to you
but if you realise,
it started because of you.
Tell me someone what should I do now?
I know I still do love her.
But the pain, hurt and disappointment's just so bad.
I know I still do miss her,
but I cant accept that fact.
The fact that she did what she did and felt nothing about it.
I thought it would be hard for her to talk,
but no, she says it's easy.
Admitted she was willing.
Tell me someone what should I do now?
Is there nothing left for me to do
but give in
whygirlwhy?
vin
I dont know if you've sensed that things have not been too well of late.
Maybe it's just me and my mind's abilty to wonder,
often a litlle to much.
But I somehow beg to differ.
I know if I say this you'll probably feel a little hurt and upset.
But I guess it's just better for you to know how Im feeling.
For this past few days,or should I say week.
You dont seem to want me as much as you used to.
I dont see your msges as often,
I dont even see you that often.
I no longer hear that soothing voice of yours resounding in my ears.
That oh-so-gentle presence that calms my soul without having to say a word.
Girl, you know how much I love and need you.
I know how dumb and irritating I can get sometimes,
but Im trying.
I really am.
Im still learning how to be more sensitive.
Im still learning how to trust.
I know that in any relationship,
trust is a very important factor and ours is just no different.
But baby, it's hard..
I just hope this is not sign or us falling apart..
Im seeing you tmr, I hope things get better.
Baby, I want you and I need you..
imissyousobad..
vin
The vortex is a must sit.
I swear I was fucking scared but well,
cause I knew how much she wanted to sit on it with me,
I sat.
I admit it was hell fun la.
Worth the cash.
HAHA!
All you who havent sat on that,
GO TRY!!
Somehow with you sitting beside me,
my nerves were already calmed and I truely enjoyed myself:]
I said " thanks baby, I love the ride"
Her reply " But I love you more"
Sweet. That's what i like about her.
Always putting me before herself.
Girl, I love you..
vin
18 months down the road and we're still at it, stronger than we used to be:]
Although I still do stupid things that make you angry,
baby you know I love you and i'll always do.
Like what i said months ago,
'come what may, I will love you until my dying day'
it still stands today:]
Im still learning and I'll work at it.
I dont want my baby to be upset or anything like that.
So with this I want to wish the love of my life a
HAPPY 18 MONTHSARY!!
I love you hon!
vin
