inSANE
I've this sudden love for Michael Card.
No, he's not some Hollywood star
nor is he some really famous person.
I mean he is if you're in the right company.
Hmm.
I'll fill you in.
He's this Christian singer/songwriter.
And I swear the song he sings speaks to the heart.
It's like.
WHOAAAA.
Hang on a second,
where did those lyrics come from?!
HAHA
You see this song called
Love Crucified arose
is awsomee.
Go check it out and see what I mean.
It totally hit me how much He loves us.
And I kinda ask myself what the hell am I doing?
Treating Him like that after all that He's done for me.
It's really really hard if you think about it.
I mean you know in your head what you should
be doing and what you shouldnt.
And obviously the path you're suppose to take is
the STRAIGHT and narrow.
If you get me.
I mean it's like you dont deserve to be treated so well
afterall, you've been living for 20 years and
what have you done that really pleases Him
except for giving Him so much pain and sorrow.
And YET He still loves you so unconditionally.
20 years man.
20 years old and Im still like that.
Unchanged.
It's not like I didnt try.
I did.
But I failed misserably.
I fell hard to the ground on my face.
I fell for someone else.
Brought grief to everyone.
And then still the same.
Unbloodychanged.
You know sometimes you think about
that sweet smile on His face saying
'well done' or 'good job'
and you imagine that kind of satisfactory
you'll feel.
But heck, you cant even cross this barrier dont
talk about anything else.
And it's really upsetting.
Why are we so weak that we fall so easily.
I mean why cant temptations be resisted.
It's so annoying.
I wish I could do it.
Overcome everything.
vin
